This is very peculiar to me because I feel I wrote these little diary entries ages ago but they are all over the internet and have been read by strangers. A lot of strangers.
I clicked into the student room just now and about 8 months ago there were messages asking me to update my blog … better late than never ey!!
So where am I now? Well I’m surviving. Do I still get excited buzzing my LAMDA lanyard everyday? Heck yes. Is London cleaning the barrel out of my hollow bank account? Yes maam. But do you know what – it’s a good life.
I’m about to go into my third and final term of second year soon so third year is just creeping round the corner ….
I’m cool. I am cool. I have got this.
No but in all seriousness, I do think I will be ready for it when it comes. So anyways you guys want to know the deets… I’m just putting a disclaimer out there that I obviously cannot talk in any lengths about inside class time because I signed that freedom away on my first day. 😂
It’s difficult to put it into words how the training has been because I am still very much in it and I have a lot more to learn. I imagine even after I graduate that I will always be in some form of training/learning; well I hope I do anyways, but it has honestly been the best thing for me. I’ve learnt a lot about what things work for me and what doesn’t. I’ve learnt what I need to do in order to care of myself; physically and mentally, because sometimes I think we forget about these (especially the latter) and it’s so important to keep in check. I’ve learnt how to live on my own and not burn kitchen items and how to adult. Woo. I know so much more about how to take care of my voice – and what my voice is for that matter – and how to actually warm up. Not only the warm ups for voice but for the body too, and how to just get into my body.
I think I’ve also come into myself more and found a confidence in me, which has been really lovely to look back on and see my progress. Not just as an actor but as a person too. I feel less judgemental about myself and other things. I feel more open to new experiences and new people. I’ve felt really cared for throughout these 2 years and I think it’s shown in me to be honest – all a bit sappy I know, but it’s the truth. And I hope if anything, that you guys have found reading these blogs to be truthful and from the heart.
Also, acting is hard. Like damn. I thought I knew a little when I was auditioning…. Oh HELL NO. I just genuinely had no idea of the scale of work that you can do before speaking someone else’s words. The teachers are wonderful; their knowledge and the time they give are… you know what – I can’t speak more highly. But you guys get my drift. Just take my advice and audition to LAMDA. And keep auditioning. And then hit me up when you get in. 😀
Other news. I started to write. I have a funny feeling my inner writer came out during my audition years writing this blog … but yes, one of the things I have written got recognised in a competion inside the school. It was a lot of fun. I’m also working on other things and I hope one day you guys will be able to see my work 🙂
And talking about you guys. You lovely humans behind this technological screen. Auditionees. I see you 👀 And I have heard you asking who is aspiring actress on your audition days….
I mean – honestly – I haven’t been all that discreet, so I’m sure you all know who I am… but just for my sake, let’s just make me sleep at night and agree that I’m still your truly, anonymous aspiring actress blogger 😛
I’m sure you will be seeing more AA posts soon 🙂
Nice blogging to you again 😀
All my best,